Life Goes On

Wow, I can't believe it has been years since I've written anything on this blog. A lot has changed in my life. Hell, these past few years I have continued to grown into the real me. 

Writing has always been a cathartic outlet for me. It is a way for me to lay out my feelings, evaluate things, and helps put things into perspective. Why did I stop writing in this blog? Life, I guess. Tends to get away from you, you fall away from passions, but the important thing is reconnecting with those passions. Another passion of mine is making people laugh. I used to be able to combine the two passions. At least, I think I did. A few people told me they always got a kick out of my writing. So, I guess, in a way, this is me jumping back into the saddle. 

I've changed in the last few years, been through some pretty rough times, had a few laughs, but also some moments that I never thought I'd see. The old me was always going on and on about finding love. So? Did it happen yet? I'm pretty sure it did. One thing I've come to accept in this life is something my grandpa used to say- "Man plans and God laughs". If I've learned anything, its that you can plan life all you want, but it will never go just how you've planned. I had this time life for my life. When and how I'd meet someone, when we'd get married, have kids, and ride off into the sunset. Well, I'm pretty sure God laughed his ass off when he saw my plan. Nothing has gone according to plan in my life, not sure why I keep planning….

So back to the love thing. Back in October of 2013, someone very special to me came into my life. Since then, I've been head over heels. I finally found someone who appreciates my quirky-ness, matches my sense of humor, and forces me out of my comfort zone. Laughter has always been a huge part of my life and I knew that I needed to find someone who valued that trait as much as I do. I am able to confidently say that he most certainly makes me laugh… even on the days I don't feel much like laughing. He has been there with me through some very difficult times and can't thank him enough for that. I can only hope that I have provided that same strength, love, and courage that he has given to me. 

I have reached a point in my life where I have chosen happiness. I've seen and felt the deepest, darkest depths of depression and I don't intend on going back. Now that I've found my happy place, I'm holding on for dear life and I won't let anyone stand in front of my happiness. You can have your opinions about my life and choices, but I'm the one who has to live with them…. not you. I let other people's opinions about me run my life for far too long, and living a free life has made me a way happier person. Also, remember that plan I was talking about? Yeah, I've thrown that out and am just living life. What ever is meant to happen, will happen when it's meant to. My boyfriend has taught me that. Spontaneity is the spice of life, and I have a partner who reminds me of that everyday. To answer your question- Yes, I found my true love.